Okay…

it’s 12:30 PM and I just woke up. I went to bed around 2AM, so obviously my body clock is still whacked out. Part of that is because I didn’t get nearly enough sleep while I was away. And that’s a long story. It will have to be told in segments because it is very long, but I wrote down everything that happened in my notebook while I was there so I wouldn’t forget too many details.

Being a writer, I have a different way of looking at things. Even when an experience is bad, I can stand outside myself and analyze it as a story that’s happening to someone else. I can think about how I will write about it later as its happening. So, that makes it easier to bear.

You can relax though. My heart wasn’t broken or anything like that. I went over there to basically check her out and see if it was going to be worth exploring a relationship. The answer was pretty obvious almost immediately, which means I spent a lot of money and time on a wasted trip.

But it wasn’t entirely wasted. I think it’s important to do something different and daring every now and then to shake up your life. Routine can be very boring. Our lives go by fast. It becomes more clear the older you get. So you should try to fill it up with interesting experiences. I can chalk this whole trip up as interesting. Definitely.

Actually, I’m smiling as I write this.

Years ago this whole experience would have been hell for me. I would have been very angry and hurt. But now I am sort of laughing at the whole thing. At myself, a little bit, too. Whatever. I saw some new things, met new people and overall am glad I did it.

So I will write about it shortly. It wuill probably take up several long posts. In the mean time I am still trying to get caught up with stuff. Will write more later.

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